I've been quiet for a reason

I just wanted to check in to let everyone know that we are alive and well. There really has been a lot going on and although I've been quite transparent in previous posts, I'm finding it hard this time to share all of my thoughts and burdens. I'm totally still working on bringing my relationship with God to a new level and I've found much joy and fulfillment in laying my burdens at His feet. After all, He's so much more equipped to handle them anyway.

We are almost at the 9 month mark since Dossier submission. Good thing since the last update we received was that the current wait time is now 26+ months. The totally bazaar thing is that I'm ok with it. God had really prepared my heart for it before it even happened. It is a little humorous when you consider the fact that one of the main reasons we felt led to adoption is because we wanted a guarantee. Pregnancy has not been a guarantee for us in the past, so we felt sure that adoption would bring us a child...guaranteed. Now, I do know that God has given us a promise, therefore we will definitely still have biological children, and we will still get our Grayci too...when that will happen is totally out of our hands.

Guarantees? The only one that I can think of is that God sent His only Son to die for our sins, and if you accept Him as your Lord and Savior you can have an amazing eternity with Him. Guaranteed!

It's the only guarantee that I need...

Father God, whew...the roller coaster ride of a life time. I was so ill-equipped to handle this ride 14 months ago when it began. But, the ride is getting smoother. God, Jason and I are still longing for children to fill our home...siblings for Bayli...babies to rock and noses to wipe. God, my heart overflows with love and I'm longing to mother someone else. I know that You have the perfect plan, and I rejoice and praise you for that. I thank you for the promise that you gave us many years ago regarding the children that you will bring into our lives. You didn't say when- but I still trust that it will happen.

Face for Grace,
Holly